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Heartbroken and alone in the Hell of BWS
No one deserves this. This is the face of a person suffering from an iatrogenic illness. This is a common occurrence with thousands of people worldwide suffering the acute and protracted withdrawals from psychiatric and pain medications taken as prescribed by their physicians and other medical care providers.
Most often when a doctor or emergency room is presented with someone in the throes of this kind of an illness they will prescribe more psychiatric medications that will often exacerbate the symptoms more. Unfortunately prescribing for these kind of symptom presentations is all they have been trained to do. Additionally the insurance companies promote medications to get you home and back to work. Despite the sometimes life altering side-effects.
The reality is many who are managed this way by their PCP won’t get back to work or, if they do, they continue to suffer with numerous life altering side effects of the medications such as lethargy, insomnia, muscle pain, brain spasms, neurological challenges, brain fog, suicidal ideation (that is what that little black box is about folks) and more.
As hard as it is for me to see myself suffering this way everything I discussed was true and I am so glad I recorded it! I was not able to manage my emotions, I wasn’t able to control my symptoms, I really struggled to manage life at this time, but every thing I spoke of was spoken in truth and that hasn’t changed today.
While many suffer horrifying challenges, please don’t discard what they tell you. They aren’t lying. They aren’t being dramatic. They are ill and suffering untold traumas that you can’t possibly imagine unless you have endured them yourself.
Please watch my most recent video to see the difference! I also intend to post a new Youtube video this week, so check back! Healing takes a long time for many and it’s often very difficult and seems like the person is having worsening psychiatric symptoms.
Yet the fact is the withdrawals off those medications were causing the truly SEVERE emotional dis-regulation. While not completely healed yet I am able and do have many interactions that don’t end up with me having a melt down today. I’m not in a major depressive state. I haven’t had a full on panic attack or even major anxiety other than in heavy traffic in the year+ since I’ve been off all pharmaceuticals. The reasons everyone said “you will need to take some type of anti-depressant and medications to help you manage the rest of your life” are pretty much gone.
If you love someone who has been injured by medical intervention, please show compassion and patience. We don’t ask for this. We are only doing what the medical professionals told us would help. Please trust us when we say these medications make us worse, not better. Despite the symptoms you see. I know it’s difficult to watch. I do it daily now myself with many friends who contact me who are suffering. I know it’s scary and feels out of control. It is. I know you think people need “medicine” to help. That doesn’t always work.
Please do your research and be educated if you are prescribed anti-depressants, anxiolytics (benzodiazepines), pain medications longer than 2 weeks, and many other types of medications. If there is a group to be found in a Google search that says they were harmed by a medication you have been prescribed, pay attention to that! Don’t chock them up to someone “crazy”.
I myself, watching this video, would have shied away in judgement just a few short years ago. I would have judged and labeled and discarded as not worthwhile or truthful simply because of the intense emotional disregulation. Please take the time to see where I am now and many others like me. We do heal. It’s slower than molasses on a frigid cold day, but it does happen. I believed it would somewhere inside me, because otherwise I would have never shared this hell with the world in the beginning!